It’s 5am, and I can’t sleep, so I got out of bed. I know I’ll regret it in a few hours, but I suppose I don’t really have a choice since I’ve already been tossing and turning for a couple of hours. So what better thing to do than to blog!
I’m restless, and all I can think about is housing and fund development. Benson and I are planning to move in a few months, so we’ve been looking for new houses. Don’t worry, we’ll still be in San Diego. Probably even closer to you. 🙂
Anyway, for some reason I feel like I have no faith that God wants to give us an amazing new place to live that lives up to our current awesome house. Ditto on the faith thing for God providing the rest of the money in regards to fundraising. I don’t know what brought me here. These are two areas I usually have a lot of trust in the Lord with, but for some reason I’ve been having a hard time with these lately, and I can’t seem to muster up enough faith to not be anxious about them.
And, here we go.
Am I really expected to “muster” up faith, anyway? I often hear people say, and I’ve said this myself, “God is testing my faith”…but is that even true? I know as we go through life our integrity, character, etc. are tested, maybe by God, maybe just by life, but how much does God actually test our faith? Continue reading