“Our uncorrected thinking, influenced by the blindness of our natural hearts and the intrusive ubiquity of visible things, tends to draw a contrast between the spiritual and the real–but actually no such contrast exists. The antithesis lies elsewhere–between the real and the imaginary, between the spiritual and the material, between the temporal and the eternal; but between the spiritual and the real, never. The spiritual is real.”
A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God, p. 54
“Complacency is a deadly foe of all spiritual growth.”
– A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God, p. 17
me & my favorite brother
A couple of weeks ago at a nearby coffee shop we celebrated the release of Midnight Bloom. Weeks prior to the project wrapping up as well as on the night of the release party people kept suggesting to me how they imagined I’d be feeling. They speculated that I probably felt overjoyed, as something I’d dreamed of my whole life (or that they assumed I’d dreamed of my whole life) had finally become a reality. Others raved about how cool it must have felt to have everyone there for me, supporting me, and having the spotlight and so much attention on me. I wish I could draw you a facial expression to show how I reacted internally to those speculations. No word captures it. I was thrown off. Continue reading
From the moment I was able to speak, people asked me, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
When I was 5 years old I grew ridiculously proud of a piece of art I had painted of the Sanrio Family of Pochacco, Pekkle, and Kerroppi sitting on a grassy hill with the sun shining down. Anyone out there familiar with Sanrio? It was after that painting that I decided I wanted to be an artist. I took my 5-year-old self and ran to my mom.
“Mom, I know what I want to be when I grow up.”
“Oh, is that so? Great! What do you want to be?” she responded in anticipation. Continue reading
I’ve never quite fancied the phrase, “If life hands you lemons, make some lemonade.” I’m the kind of person that doesn’t want to make lemonade if I wasn’t planning on it, and I definitely wouldn’t want sour lemons if I were hoping for oranges.
In case you aren’t aware, this is a horrible way to live, as it is also a horrible way to let God be Lord of your life. I’ve expected a lot of oranges and whatnot lately, but I’ve received many lemons instead. Over time I’ve noticed myself having more anxiety, more often feeling discontent and frustrated, and inevitably trusting God less and less. To put it frankly, I became a bratty child of God who felt entitled to non-lemons.
Lemons come in the form of closed doors, unexpected “no’s,” unexpected problems, God’s silence, periods of waiting, and all those other things that happen that just don’t go your way or how you expected them to go.
When I want an orange and someone gives me a sour lemon that I didn’t want, all I want to do with that lemon is throw it at something or to turn it into an orange via wishful thinking or pestering God. Continue reading
Holy cow. We’re gonna start tracking my songs at the end of this month! So nuts. I think it’ll be a 5 song EP, so a mini CD. Good enough to get my feet wet, I think…and just about all I can handle time-wise right now!
So here’s a little taste of what it’s about… Continue reading